Friday, April 18, 2008

Felt the Earth move under my feet...

At 4:30 in the morning I was dreaming about my man... that shaking I thought *blush* was part of the dream.   I didn't even know we had an earthquake until I got in the shower and heard the DJ on my radio talking about it.  But I know people who were woken up and were shocked badly.   After all you don't expect to have earthquakes in MO!  Sure they talk about the possibility but its been forever since we actually had one that you could feel.

I did feel a tiny bit the second one later in the morning but it really was of no consequence.  I don't think I want to find out what a BIG one is like... ugh this is why I don't live on the west coast!

Anyway, hubby is going to be home very soon now and the Only Earth moving I want to experience is in the bedroom hehehe.

T minus 10 hours... Mary's going to get some

9;00 p.m. tonight, Josh is going to  barely be able to get out of the airport parking lot before getting attacked by his wife. : )

I am on the verge of going bonkers.  I told my hubby last week he HAS to come home this weekend.. no if ands or buts.  It's only been a few weeks but it feels like months.  And that book my friend gave me called Red Hot Monogamy didn't help lol only made it worse for me.  That is not a book to be reading when your spouse is out of town lol.

All week we have been doing this big build up, sending dirty texts to each other, among other things I shall not repeat *gig like a school girl*  Saturday we are have dinner reservations at this French restaurant and winery and a room booked with extend check out time and a king size bed with chocolate and wine.  Oh ya this weekend is purely about one thing.  Ha ha aint no shame in that, we are married lol.

Oh ya.. the kids might get to see him for a minuet too.  And if I can hold off some family drama till Monday I am going to have an awesome time.

10 hours to go..

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Feeling Blessed

I just have to write an entry about God's faithfulness and praise him for all he is doing.  By the skin of my teeth my electric was able to avoid disconnection.  I was stressing over it, because I didn't think I would have the money untill Friday to go towards the bill and the disconnection date was yesterday.  Ofcourse I could of and should of asked for help with it but um maybe it was pride or just knowing how everyone else's funds are low too I couldn't bring myself to.  I called the electric company Monday to see about making an arraignment (I hear ppl do it all the time) and ask if they could wait till Friday when I could pay the bill in full... but who ever answered in INDIA (don't get me started about that) was not very helpful on that front and said I didn't qualify (maybe he just didn't understand what I was trying to say cuz I sure had a hard time understanding him.. ugh again don't get me started).  So when the electric was still on yesterday and this morning I was happy for the bit of grace.  I checked my bank account balance before I left for work this morning and very happy to see my pay check was deposited early!!!  And there for I was able to pay on my bill, in the nick of time too... they said the order for disconnect was already out in the field.

See it's little things like this that I see his hands on, not just the big miraculous.  For some it maybe just a coincidence, for me it is my God taking care of me and my family's needs.. on his time table ofcourse.

Also this morning I got a chance to call into a radio program and comment on the clip of Oprah they had played in regards to what some are calling her new age church (google it or look it up on youtube or godtube).  I was commenting on the fact that she said faith and God, is a feeling that you don't have to believe in one particular book or theology but on your feelings towards a higher power.  My comments are you can not base your belief system on feelings or interpit the Bible on feelings.. because feelings change day to day, they are inconsistent and can be wrong.  But God is The same yesterday, today and Forever, he never changes.  Sometimes I don't FEEL like I am forgiven, and there was a time when I FELT I needed to do good works to enhance my salvation or earn my way to heaven but I now know that despite how I felt, what Jesus Christ did on the cross paid it all in full and I can not add to what he did by doing good deeds or take away from what he did when I fall short... IT IS FINISHED.  His grace is sufficient!! 

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Reason

I cry every time I see this video because it is so my story! This was me and this is what Jesus did for me (and you)!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Monday, March 31, 2008

Nostalgia~rama

First I find my old best friend from when I was growing up.  Then I start scrapbooking with the girls and go threw all these old pictures and now this!!!!!!!!


New Kids to Perform on 'Today' - AOL News

You Just don't even understand how I was soooooo nuts over NKOTB.  I didn't just simply have my walls covered in posters.. I had my ceilings and closet wallpapered.  They were my first concert.

Ofcourse Donny was my fav and I have followed his and his brother's acting career with great pleaser *yum* lol jk

Does this happen to everyone when theY turn 30..um something.. everything comes back around to make you feel even older??? LOL

Maybe if they do come in concert I will take my girls and we can hoop and holler together.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

what’s behind my current myspace profile song

what’s behind my current profile song on my myspace page (wish AOL journals made it easier to include music)

Just so you know.. I normaly put alot of thought behind what I add as my profile song andd Headline on my myspace page.  Here is the lyrics for the song I currently have:

Casting Crowns: I Am Every Man

I’m the man with all I’ve ever wanted
all the toys and playing games
I am the one who pours your coffee, corner booth each Saturday
I am your daughter’s favorite teacher
I am the leader of the band
I sit behind you in the bleachers
I am every man

I’m the coach of every winning team and still a loser in my mind
I am the soldier in the airport facing giants one more time
I am the woman shamed and haunted by the cry of unborn life
I’m every broken man, nervous child, lonely wife

CHORUS:
Is there hope for every man
A solid place where we can stand
In this dry and weary land
Is there hope for every man
Is there love that never dies
Is there peace in troubled times
Someone help me understand
Is there hope for every man

Seems there’s just so many roads to travel,
It’s hard to tell where they will lead
My life is scarred and my dreams unraveled
Now I’m scared to take the leap
If I could find someone to follow
Who know my pain and feels the weight
The uncertainty of my tomorrow,
The guilt and pain of yesterday

CHORUS: (reprise)
There is hope for every man
A solid place where we can stand
In this dry and weary land
There is hope for every man
There is Love that never dies
There is peace in troubled times
Will we help them understand?
Jesus is hope for every man

It is one of my new fav songs.  When I first heard it on the radio I ofcourse idenfied with the women haunted and ashamed by unborn life.  But I am not brought down by that thought.. I am uplifted because I am free of that guilt and shame and I now have hope.  Free yes Free!!  I used to be so plauged by the hurt of abortion, I have come along way since I have allowed the Lord to work on me and heal me.  Yes I am still sad, and miss having that sweet baby, she would be about 16yrs old but the hope comes in knowing I will see her in Heaven when I get there and as the Lord has forgiven me of her murder, so will she.  Beautiful.. I love you and miss you!