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Mom:i am sorry i caused you so much pain baby  i hope you know if you had decided to keep that baby I would have let you  and you are right you should have been give better counseling on your choices but i was at a loss about what to do tooHunybea4him:ohh mom i told you before you read all that that I was ok, that i love you and that i understood. like i said God allowed me to go threw all that,  he will use that in my life to help othersMom:it didn't make it hurt any less to see the pain my baby had gone through and not to have been there for you better than i was. i am sorry i failed you then but i was just doing what i thought was best at the time. God has taught us all from that experience.  I tried to stay with your father to keep the family together and make it better  now when i look back on my life maybe all that trouble would have been avoided if i had left him. but so many wonders have come from it too. you have a wonderful husband which if i had left him you would have never met.

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Hunybea4him:mom, i love you and dad, and even if he caused us pain, i forgive him and still love him.  no one is perfect and we all make mistakes.I was given you and dad as parents for a reason.  God hand picked you both for me.Mom: we all make choices and i truely beleived that abortion was not killing the child.  i know better now and i think deep down i knew then. but i was trying to what was best for my family

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Hunybea4him:i dont blame you.you belived a lie.Satan is the father of all lies,he is out to kill steal and destroyMom:we had been through so much and i wanted to heal us all and i knew i was terrible at it.me the care giver  gonna fix everything but never did a very good job of it.Hunybea4himGod is so wonderful.  confess it to him and ask him to forgive you, it is betweem you and him now.  He will forgive you for any sins if you just ask  and he will take away that guilt and shame you feelMom:i know he has forgiven me he has blessed me with so much. but when the past comes back to visit the old wounds come back too and satan likes to make you feel bad all over again 

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well part of healing is talking it out with God in prayer too.  And knowing with out of any dought that he has forgiven you and has cast it away as far as the east is from the west. So when it does come back up you can face it with no shame That is the only way i can be soo open about it now. I know God has forgiven me and healed me of those hurts. Satan can't throw it back at me. It is wiped out when i first came to that relization of what abortion was, i was so sad.  I thought to myself, sure he can forgive me for everything else in my life i have done, but not this one big thing, i have to earn his forgivness.But I was wrong and threw bible reading and prayer and the post abortion counciling I came to see that it was all done at the cross, and I didnt have to begg for it, work for it.Just ask for it. and I didnt have to dwell on it,  he took that shame and guilt awaycan you see why now I love God so much, why I have so much Joy, and Peace?

My resources for Fast Facts

http://www.lifeissues.org/TruthUnmasked/realindex.htm

Sources used:

            CDC and Prevention

            The Allan Guttmacher Institute (a research arm of Planed Parenthood)

            US Census Bureau      

            National Vital Statistics Reports, Vol. 48, Number 11

I have written an eassay using the following information.  E-Mail to request a copey because there is just no room to do it in this journal.

Part1

Fast facts

            43 Million Abortions in the last 30years

            1.4 Million a year

            4,000 a day

            165 per hour

            1 ever 23 seconds

            1 out of 4 conceptions is ended by medical abortions = 25% of our population

Part 2 Some fast facts about Abortion

Women and the numbers

            52% are under 25        

            33% are 20-24

            19% teenagers

            66% unwed