Saturday, May 19, 2007

What if it was your daughter?

I try not to gossip.. really I do!  But when the whispers of the neighborhood turns out to be an alarming fact that you need to guard your family against then that is not necessarily gossip, is it.  Apparently there is a sex offender living in our budding subdivision ... listed on the MO Sex Offender list.  When I first heard I asked well.. what kind.. just because someone is on that list doesn't mean they are a horrific threat.. people can get on that list just for peeing in a bush.  But this is no light offender, he has done prison time for sodomizing and sexual acts with a 12yrd girl!  The mommy in me and the once abused little girl in me is appalled and trying to figure out how to process this information.  I have three very friendly daughters, who I almost never let out of my sight, non the less still knowing this info leaves me torn.  As a Christian I don't want to judge people I have never met, this happen over 10 yrs ago and I don't know this man and if he has changed his life but on the other hand sex offenders are notorious to be repeat predators.  How wrong would it be to drive past this house with my girls and point it out.. see this house.. stay away from it and the people who live there.. someone there has been known to hurt little girls like you?
Has anyone else been threw this.. found out a sex offender lives in your neighborhood?  What did you do with that knowledge?
I have to bring two news headlines into my thought processes on this and express my never ending disgust and anger with Planned Parenthood.  The first story is about a girl who is now suing PP in OH for their look the other way policies.  In 2004 when she was 16 and brought in by force for an abortion by her father who had been molesting her since she was 13, she had told them of the abuse but they didn't do anything to help her, or report it to any authorities as by law they were supposed to. It took the girl two more years to get the courage to tell a coach about the abuse and get out of the situation but if PP had reported it earlier she could have been saved from it sooner. The second story, just as relevant and showing PP's habitual pattern of putting profits above children's welfare is about who they at the time thought was a 15yrd girl brought in by her 23 yrd boyfriend for an abortion.  They told her they would have to report them if she was 15 but if she "picked a date" that worked.. well then there was no telling her to lie about her age so they wouldn't have to be responsible and report statutory rape to authorities, as is the law.  As it turns out the girl was really 18 with a hidden camera that recorded the conversation and it ended up on YouTube.  Ofcourse Planned Parenthood is now suing her and forced her to take the clip down and want her to hand over the tapes (yes she did break the law because in CA it is illiagle to tape a conversation that both parties do not know is being recorded.. still the information does not change.. it happen and they can't hide that).
So what if one of my daughters was in a situation where she was being abused, say by the friendly neighborhood sex offender..and he brought her to a Planned Parenthood for an abortion to COVER UP the crime, it would never get reported.. they would take the money and look the other frick-in way!!  Just one of MANY examples of how the abortion industry puts profits above girls and women's welfare and health.  And YOU America allow this to go on with your tax money that goes to Planned Parenthood and your apathy to this issue.. "it's not my issue, its not my choice, it doesn't effect me"
Hopefully that sinario would never happen to one of my children, by God's protection and grace and because Missouri has a law where it requires a parent's consent and bans people taking children across state lines for an abortion that don't have that law.  But what if... what if I didn't live in a state that has that law.. what if the law got over turn.. what if the clinic just simply doesn't FOLLOW the Law.. we can see patterns where they currently don't respect State and Federal Laws because it does effect their bottom fiscal line.  What If... it was your daughter?

Monday, May 14, 2007

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Passport Found!!! And You will never guess where!

Last summer Josh got a passport in preparations for a job he was going on out of the country.  In February the employer needed info off of it for paperwork and yada yada.. but the thing was lost. We got him a new one quick at great expense to us and after all that he ended up not talking the job overseas.  Still its is a good thing he has one, he may be going to Mexico with the company his currently with sometime in the future.  But that is not the point.  Looking for the passport and getting a new one was a big ordeal.  We thought we left no stone unturned.  We turned the house upside down, the cars, even bribed the kids.  Josh had insisted it was somehow MY FAULT that it was lost and that it must have been thrown out during cleaning or decluttering.  I felt major guilt over it because I had no clue what happen to it.
Josh went out of town last night and I guess this morning he was unpacking.  He called and said he found it.  It was in his BIBLE, yes his BIBLE of all places!  I am just beside myself and in awe.  Certainly God is trying to tell you something dear.  READ your Bible more often!!  If that doesn't get his attention I don't know what will.
The thing is I KNOW I looked threw every book and Bible we own when we were looking. And I kept thinking at the time his passport was somewhere in is car or luggage (where he keeps his Bible btw).  I know we looked threw his car and luggage dozens of times and that would have included his Bible.  Maybe somehow we were blinded so that we would not find it, for what ever reason.  I even think I brought his Bible with us to Chicago when we went to get the new passport but I didn't read it in the car or at the Hotel because Josh hates it when I read while we are driving and wants me to entertain him.  There are many lessons here.. and I get it.. I only hope he does too.
"They Word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path"

Sunday, May 6, 2007


Worries of this World trying to over take me.

I try not to pout and hold on but I wonder...

How can  blessings, be taken?

Where is provision, where is help, Am I not standing on the rock that can not be moved?

Is this a test, I feel like I am failing.

Am I being broken down so I can be built back up?

I feel my old hard heart speaking, see.. this is what you get for hoping, did you really think it was all for you to keep.  This is the same story of your life all over again. Dreams are silly and only get crushed.  You don't appreciate, there is no unconditional.. all love can be taken.

Another voice speaks and says wait, patients is key, all is not lost just yet and on the other side is joy.  Put pride aside.

And the hard heart says back.. you can't live in denial and must prepare for the worst, there is no hope for this situation.  No miracle at the midnight hour.  You never deserved it, there was no care, life just isn't fair.  The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away.  You are too small for it to matter anyway. This is nothing compaired to what is to come.

A conflict in my soul.

Are you trying to get my attention.. you have it.  All is out of my hands and control.


Friday, May 4, 2007

pen,paper, book

"face your fears, and find your poet within"

Ephesians 2:10 For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.

Can a pen have joy if it sits in the drawer it's whole life?

Can paper be truly happy blank?

Can a book find purpose if it has never been read?

A pen, paper and a book, all tools used by a creator and all have a purpose.  They are useless articles if they are never used for what they are intended.  They are possibilities, hopes and dreams waiting to go forth and be realized. Pen will sit in that drawer, paper in a notebook and book on that shelf longing for something more, waiting to be used, waiting to be fulfilled.

I am pen. I am paper.  I am book.  I am waiting.


Inspired by Tear Your Plank and Made To Love


TobyMac: Made To Love

The dream is fading now I’m staring at the door
I know it’s over ‘cause my feet have hit the cold floor
Check my reflection, I ain’t feeling what I see
Its no mystery

Whatever happened to a passion I could live for?
What became of the flame that made me feel more?
And when did I forget …

That I was made to love You
I was made to find You
I was made just for You
Made to adore You
I was made to love and be loved by You
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said You’d keep me never would You leave me
I was made to love
And be loved by You

The dream’s alive with my eyes open wide
Back in the ring You got me swingin’ for the grand prize
I feel the haters spittin’ vapors on my dreams
But I still believe …

I’m reaching out, reachin’ up, reachin’ over
I feel a breeze cover me called Jehovah
And Daddy I’m on my way …

Anything, I would give up for You
Everything, I’d give it all away 

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

One down, two more to to go this week.. Field trip time!

Yesterday was one of three field trips I get to go on this week.  Annie's fourth grade class went downtown to see the Arch and go on a river boat ride.  We have been to the Arch several times since living here but never rode on the river, so that was something different.  I was glad I was able to go with Annie and the other kids this year on field trips.  They always feel special.

If you ever wondered what the view is like from the top of the Arch, here is a short video I took while we were up there.  Just mute it if all the kids voices get annoying (lol)

Thursday I go with Zane and his 6th grade class to the local grocery store and then to the park.  It's a math lessen I guess.. they have to purchase in groups the things necessary to make lunch for those in the their group and then go to the park and put it together and eat ofcourse.  And then Friday I get to go with Lilly's 1st grade to the Saint Louis Zoo.  Also Next week is busy busy too.  Sophia has a field trip to Quiver River State Park and I have Mother & Daughter tea at school with the girls and also this Saturday with women's group.  All this running around is killing me in gas but I am sure some how we will get threw.  It used to be volunteers could ride on the bus with the field trip but this school district has nixed that for insurance purposes so I have to drive in my van everywhere.. and most of the time its like an hour drive.  Gas just hit 2.97!


Money is just very tight.. I had to make the choice between what would be disconnected, home phone &dsl or our cellphones.  Since Josh needs his cell for work I guess I will be doing with out the net for a little while soon.  And I am absolutely out of cigarettes (ya I know) till Friday.  Good thing I have tea or else some one may of ended up hurt around here.  It's easy to stay off soda when you don't have money to buy it.  But when others are drinking it around you that is when temptation is very hard. But I haven't had ANY since Saturday.