From LifeNews.com

My question is if they are pulling that drug Viox (sp) because of the slight risks it has on ppl taking it of having a heart attack.. Why Is this one being allowed to stay and not given the same weight as other drugs!!!! Answer: Because abortion advocites are all for it and don't really care about women's health, just money.  You can put all the warnings and bells and whistles on it, but girls are still going to die because often teens don't pay attention to labels or warning signs, are nieve about thier bodies and if they are keeping it from thier parents how are the parents going to know that is why thier child is sick.. and sadly if not treated.. why they could die.

Dangerous RU 486 Abortion Drug Gets Safety Warnings After Teen's Death
Washington, DC (LifeNews.com) -- New warnings will be placed on packages containing the dangerous abortion drug RU 486 following the death of a California teenager last year. The new warning labels required by the FDA will highlight how infections can bring about the death of a woman using the abortion drug. Marketed as Mifeprex, the drug already carried the Food and Drug Administration's highest level black box warning -- which warns consumers that it is especially dangerous. The black box warning will expand and include new information on dangers that could cost women's lives, such as information on life-threatening complications like severe bacterial infections that led to the September 2003 death of Holly Patterson. The new warning labels also discuss the extensive bleeding that can occur following a chemical abortion, as can happen with any abortion. The labels warn that serious infection can result without the usual telltale signs like fever or tenderness. Following approval by the Clinton administration in 2000, the FDA has received numerous reports of complications resulting from the use of the abortion drug. "FDA and (drugmaker) Danco Laboratories have received reports of serious bacterial infection, bleeding, ectopic pregnancies that have ruptured, and death, including another death from sepsis (blood infection) that was recently reported to FDA," the agency said in a statement. A representative of Concerned Women for America blasted the decision, saying the warning labels don't make the drug safer and that the agency should prevent abortion businesses from selling the dangerous drug. "It is reported that another woman has died after taking the abortion drug RU-486, and the FDA's response is to change the drug's label," Wendy Wright, the group's senior policy director, said in a statement. "This is a dangerous drug that deserves to be pulled off the market immediately." Read the complete story.

FDA Reveals Third U.S. Woman Died From RU 486 Abortion Drug
Washington, DC (LifeNews.com) -- In an announcement on Monday that the dangerous RU 486 abortion drug would be accompanied by expanded warning labels noting additional risks and dangers, including death, FDA officials revealed another woman has died from taking the abortion pill. In September 2003, California teenager Holly Patterson died from a severe infection brought on by the abortion drug. While women have died in Canada, Sweden and elsewhere, Patterson's death was thought to be the only the second fatality so far from the use of the abortion drug in the United States. Another woman, Brenda Vise, died in 2001 after using the abortion drug. Danco Laboratories, the maker of RU 486 says the abortion drug should not be taken by women with ectopic pregnancies, but Vise's ectopic pregnancy was not diagnosed before she used the drug. However, in an FDA report released Monday, officials confirmed a third U.S. woman died as aresult of the Mifeprex abortion pill. No details about the woman's death were given. The news is upsetting for pro-life groups who say the drug should be taken off the market while its safety is reviewed. "RU-486 doesn't need a better label, it needs to be shelved," said Cathy Cleaver Ruse, a representative of the pro-life office of the U.S. Conference of Catholic Bishops. "Young women depend upon the safety of FDA-approved drugs. How many have to die before this killer drug is taken off the market?" "RU-486 was the new 'magic pill' to make babies disappear, and young women are now its latest victims," Ruse said. "RU-486 must be stopped." Read the complete story.

Father of Teen Who Died From Abortion Drug: New FDA Warning Not Enough
Read the complete story.

New songs, My List, Other tid bits

Today's song is by Randy Travis.  Yess I know "Country?" LOL If you would have told me six years ago I would be into any country music, I would have laughed you out of my house.  I used to despise it, loth it, throw up at the thought of it. LOL Whyyyyy??? I don't know, probably goes back to my days spent in the back woods of Wis. and I was trying so hard to keep my big city girl attitude while surrounded by a bunch of yokels. LOL But over the years I have soften.  I love Randy Travis's Gospel music and I was so excited the one time I got to go and see him live for free at one of the local bigger churches.  Looking threw the Christmas adds One Way Book Stores sent out I see he has a new one out: Passing Through, and a voice for a new kids cartoon series called, On The Farm with Farmer Bob.  So you know that is on my list lol.

Speaking of Christmas ... why do I even bother keeping or starting a list for myself?  I don't ever have a formal list but all threw the year when I see something I want but know I cannot get right then and there I say to myself, Christmas is coming, it is on the list. lol My form of impulse control. Yet I know I will be blessed to get even one thing that I want.  I have come to really dislike the whole commercialization of The birth of Jesus, especially since there is so much I would like to do for my kids and don't have the money to do it.  But my kids are pretty good about the whole thing, they know it is not about the toys or the gifts and yes they have a list but they will not be devastated if they don't get each and everything on it.  Josh and I have resigned ourselves to getting them just one thing, all the rest will have to come from other family.  But Just for fun here is my list lol

1. Music: Casting Crowns. Randy Travis. Audio Adrenaline. NewsBoys. Toby Keith.

2. Movies: Jem on DVD season 1,2 and 3!!  The Passion of the Christ.

3. Computer stuff: DVD drive and writer.  More memory (since it is always saying my temporary memory is low) Since I am just dreaming ... LAP TOP with wireless connection to the net. A year of AOL paid for. PC Study Bible version 4. Photo Shop Pro and detailed instructions on how to make my own blinkies.

4. books: Stephen King non fiction: On Writing

5. Cloths that fit right and new shoes but especially a new bra.

6. awww a trip to the spa!

7. Wine: Augusta's Port Wine... (I will take that as a B-day gift too lol)

8. New sheets and bed spread for my room and the paint to match for my walls.

9. Candles and holders.

10. A weekend get away with Just ME AND JOSH, no kids!

11. My teeth paid for and the bill it is going to take to get it all done.

There you have it MOM! lol she is always asking me for a list.  I still have to make the kids write one out.  Speaking of my mother.  She is coming down this weekend for an early Thanksgiving Dinner!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I am sooooo happy about it! I miss her so much. But she said I have to take the delivery of her treadmill for her to come lol she can't use it anymore and she wants to get rid of it. It is on wheels and folds up for space saving.  Josh doesn't want it lol.  I can only think of one spot upstairs for it, the living room. If I put it down in the basement I will never use it and it is too big for my small bedroom.

More odds and ends:

Josh had a rain day yesterday.  You know what that meant lol. And he is less than happy with the new company he is working for.  Because the boss man doesn't seem to like his work or the speed he does projects. He made the comment to Josh yesterday when he told him they still had a day left on a certain project, If he was any slower he would have to fire him. I know that tears at Josh and it is not true.  Thankfully Josh did work today, maybe he will have a better one today.

I have not done any writing on my book for almost 2 days! Awwwk!  I am at a part where I think she is going to see more demons but also the love thing is blossoming between her and Phil. I am getting nervous if I will be able to get in everything that needs to be in there. It is not like I couldn't have written some these last two days, but I think I got a bit burned out and had to take a break.

Wednesday the kids got assigned their parts for the Christmas Pageant we are having with the other church.  AnnMarie is going to be Mary, she is so excited.  I told her she had to speak up if she wanted it, several girls wanted that part you know. lol And Zane is going to be a Bailiff for the court room drama part. It is really two plays connected into one.  The first one is with the little kids and the tots, the story of the crippled little lamb and the second one is about the shepherds, a funny skit.  The shepherds get arrested because of their excitement, so they have to go to court the next day and explain themselves.  I will try and be as active in helping get this production underway as the ladies who are running the show will let me.

Did I tell you all that my son is going to be in the school's spelling Bee???!! He is going to be representing his class.  He came in first place for his class! MAN! You should see this list he brought home.  I think he can do the easily and intermittent ones good, but the advanced I think He needs to work on. I will be making sure he puts some time aside to study for it and look up the bigger words in the many catigories they have.  If he wins the school he goes on to the City one and then to state lol He obviously dosn't get that from me.. I am the worst when it comes to spelling.

 So he has that on his plate on top of learning guitar, his clubs and now the church play.  Tracy came over last night for a lesion, I made her have dinner with us.  It was so nice.  I told her we could make that a weekly thing if she would like.  Also Monday if no one but her and I are going to be at church for the prayer meeting we can have dinner at my house again and pray at my house.  Some time I will have to go into more detail about his sweet lady.

And last but not least.. I have to make time today and write the open spot for the J~Land novel.  I am excited about it and begged for the open spot. I have it in my head, promise Lori. LOL

OH ya I forgot to say.. ugh Lice had reared it's ugly head again. Lilly some and I did her hair Tue.  I checked the rest of the kids and they was clean, Annie even went down to the nurse to get checked.  The nurse called me and said she was clean but had what they call alot of head debri.. from dry scalp.  She offered some suggestions on what to get for her. I got her some dandruf shampoo and Scalpicin drops for the really bad areas.  I washed and washed linens.  I have been on guard since the last break out.  Then last night I was going threw Annie's hair after her shower and found one or two. gurrrr.  I made Josh do my hair because I have the itch of paranoia.  So he spent two hours on my hair and swears he found nothing... I wonder if he knows what he is looking for lol.. I showed him what they looked like.  Well I have prayed protection over each of my children's head for the rest of the year and for our home.  I am thinking of talking my mom into doing my hair this weekend. So who knows by Monday I will have that pic of my shorter hair for you all and maybe a new color.  I need to invest in those oils Lori told me about to make a shampoo that keeps the bugs away.

Good Girl

I just deleted the post I had written all out.  Good Girl!  It is not wise to vent everything, and some may get the wrong idea, and if ppl from that church you had written about ever happen to read it, think of the hurt that could cause. Good Girl.. delet delet delet.. LOL

Non theless.. I am still feeling a bit put off.. a bit rejected.. and WHAT HAPPEN TO MY CHURCH LOGO! WHAT HAPPEN TO A YEAR TO ADJUST TO THIS CHANGE, THIS MELTING OF TWO CHURCHES? What happen to comprimise? Are we giving away all just to apease them?

What happen?? Being out of the loop is what happen... Miss a Wednesday here and there and see!

Get over it girl..  Don't get in the way.. keep your head down.. This too shall pass.. He has a plan...

We do not live by feelings but by faith..

*sigh*

My Word Count!

Word Count So Far
36247 / 50000 words

 

Whaaaaaaaahoooooooo LOOK AT THAT BABY!!!

More than half way there!

Aww but I only have 13 days, 12 hours, and 13 minutes left to get to the conclustion of this writting marathon!

 

 

Music is Life, Book writting, and I WILL BUY YOU A BIKE BABY

I have figured out that music takes up boco FPT space! lol I have tried to get a specific song but apparently it is too big for any of my screen names lol. So I had to try a differnt song. I love this current one. DRAW ME CLOSE TO YOU. It is one we sing often at church, this version is done a bit slower than how we sing it but still very moving.

Why do I embed the songs when I know there is a way to just make a link to click?? Lazy plus I think this way is cool too. Music plays a big part in my walk with the Lord. I know that it played a big, big part in my coming to him and my heart being stirred. I guess I honestly think there are some who will not listen if there is just the link to it, so I have to sneak it in on them. LOL I have longed for this whole last year to be able to share the songs that speak to my soul with my friends here, the songs that bring me to tears during worship.  My church's website has our worship music posted on it but they have not updated it in a very long time, plus they are not professional but they are good.

Think of it this way, if you was at my house or driving in my car with me, this is what would likely be playing on my radio. I for sure think music feeds your soul and what you listen to will effluence your moods and thoughts. Junk in, Junk out, or Praise in, Praise out.  So there, you have been warned!

And like my disclaimer says, you can always link to an entry if you don't want to hear the song anymore. But at least hear it once before you do that, please, for me lol.

Speaking of music, I hope everyone enjoyed "Whiter Shade of Pale" in that last entry, not only did it match to what Stan was listening to when they entered the house, it is also one of my dad's records that I have and used to listen to over and over.  LOL My whole book is going to have a soundtrack I think.

I so much enjoy your guys feed back on the excerpts I publish in here. Lord knows I am not getting any from home.  I was a bit concerned about the last one, if it was descriptive enough. If you could actually picture the interior of the house and its condition, get a feel for the lay out.  I can write emotion easy but when it comes to describing technical things I feel like I lack.  I am half tempted to put all of it up here, just to hear what ppl will say about it, but no I want to tease and hopefully if ever I sell it, my loyal friends here will buy it LOL AS IF.

Iwas thinking about it last night before we went to bed and laughed.  Josh asked "What?" I told him "oh nothing I am just silly". :About what" he asked.  I said "I was thinking about what I would actually buy with the money I would make if I ever did get the thing sold and published". I kinda had that grin that said it was something for him and he asked what, "a truck".  NOOOOO I said.  "The bike he has been dreaming and drooling over, the one where I would ride on the back with him". He said "ya right". 

I think either I gave my husband the wrong impression about NaNoWriMo or I just didn't describe it good.  He asked if the winners get published, if it was a contest. I said "well, no we have to do that work in trying to get it published, and yes it is a contest.  A contest with our selves, to see if we can really write a novel in 30 days".  Oh he thinks this is a waste of time and that I am just looking for ways to skirt responsibilities around here. HA I don't have to look, the opportunities just lay themselves out there easy.  Would I have actually written a book or attempted to if I had not found out about that site? No probably not, but writing has always been something I love and get excited about.  I wish he could understand, that I don't do these things to piss him off.  I have been trying more!  I made up a resume and am going to start hitting the pavement for a job, I have been better about the house work and the laundry, baby steps but at least the dishes are getting done everyday now and laundry is getting folded, and dinner is on by 5 or so.  I will not be as into the book writing after November, if I can just put up with his complaining a bit longer, I am half way there.

Is it descriptive enough? can you get a feel for the house?

*Link to this entry and click to hear song for this part of the chapter*  

Chapter 10

 

Hannah picked up off the car’s floor the plastic bag with the candy and drinks she had purchased and opened her car door and got out. She shivered as the night air hit her.  Phil got out and slammed the driver side door shut. He too felt the chill in the air. He pulled his black and grey checkered flannel closer and started for the door with Hannah close behind.

 

Hannah followed Phil like a shadow as they stepped up onto the dark porch that had two wicker chairs and a table set out. Hannah noted that there was an ashtray and a dirty glass on the wicker table.  As they reach the door they could hear music coming from the house.  Phil turned the knob and opened the door to a crack and then looked over to Hannah as he put his hand out for her to take. With her free hand she took his and followed him into the house.

 

Hannah could smell the now familiar herbal scent of marijuana as soon as she walked into the entrance way littered with shoes. Phil stepped over the shoes and pulled Hannah along with him around a corner that led to a short dimly lit hall way. At the end of the hall was another corner that glowed with a red light.

 

“Stan, we’re here.” Phil yelled over the Procol Harlum lyrics playing from down the hall.

 

Hannah noticed a few holes in the walls and also that there was no pictures or mirrors hanging, no decorations at all. On the gray rug that lined the hall she over stepped a dirty sock and a dead leaf here and there.<o:p></o:p>

 

“Come on in” Stan’s voice carried from the room around the corner.

 

Phil still had Hannah’s hand as they came to the corner that opened up to a small living room and an adjacent kitchen separated by a half wall. The living room was very messy and unkempt with old soda cans on the coffee table and stacks of papers and the gray rug looked as if it had not been vacuumed in God knows how long and had various stains in the major traffic areas. 

 

Stan was sitting on a faded blue love seat couch with his feet up on the cluttered coffee table.  Across the room was a big ’28 inch colored TV. on a chestnut stained wood stand that had doors open up at the bottom littered with a game system and games and videos.  On top of the TV was just one dusty picture of a green eyed, red head girl sitting in a grassy area. She had on a big toothy grin and was wearing a tie died shirt and a white flowing skirt. Her expression looked as if she was just laughing at the world’s funniest joke and it had been captured forever in time by this picture. Hannah had recognized the girl in the picture from one she had seen at the coffee house. On the right side to the TV on the far wall was a book self with a few books and a large collection of records.  And on the left side of the TV was another small stand with an old record player that was spinning the record Stan was currently listening to. “A Whiter Shade Of Pale” was floating out of the speakers that was hanging on the wall positioned on both sides of the small love seat. In a corner was a standing halogen lamp with a red light bulb in it, drenching the small room in red light, giving it a cool mellow feel.

 

Phil led Hannah over to beat up brown recliner by the curtain less dirty window that over looked a small yard with tall wood fencing. Phil sat down and gently pulled Hannah down to sit on his lap.  Hannah sat lightly down and then set the plastic gas station bag down next to her feet. She surveyed the room and the connecting kitchen with a polite smile. Her first thought was to get up and start picking up the trash on the coffee table and take it to the almost over flowing garbage can in the kitchen and then do the tall stack of dirty dishes pilled up in the kitchen sink and half wall and maybe mop the filthy tile floor of the kitchen but she held it back.  She knows it would seem rude but the house is a mess, a stark contrition to her home that her mother kept immaculate. Instead she leaned back on Phil’s chest and let him put his arms around her.

 

“Took you guys long enough” Stan said mildly as he was relaxing on the love seat.

 

“We made a pit stop for some goodies” Phil answered him and then added, “What where you doing at the gas station dude! I know you stopped there.  The clerk ratted you out to Hannah.”

 

Hannah winced at Phil’s angry tone and wish she had not mentioned to him what the attendance had told her.

 

“Aw man chill. I just did you a favor and gassed up the baby. Even watched my speed so the cops wouldn’t bust me.  Thanks for your confidante in me son” Stan snapped at him.

 

Phil let out an angry sigh into Hannah’s ear that gave her goose bumps and then she felt him calm down as he said, “Sorry but you do not have the best of records. But thanks for thinking of me and putting gas in her.”

 

“Sweet ride.  Glad you let me drive her home.  But too flashy and too much attention.  I don’t think it’s the car for you... Well maybe for a...” Stan trailed off what he was saying so he wouldn’t say “a big star like you”.  He didn’t want to be the one to bring the subject up with Hannah around.  And he knows Phil craves to be treated normal now and then and he wants to be a safe place for him when he needs a retreat.

 

There was a relaxing pause in the conversation as they listened to the record playing it’s self out.  When the recorded stopped spinning and came to its conclusion Stan reluctantly got up out of his seat and went over to the record player and took the record off the deck and put it carefully back into its jacket with its black and white drawing of a girl with flowing hair.

 

“Haven’t you upgraded yet to CD dude?” Phil asked but knew the answer.

 

“Na.  Nothing like vinyl.  CDs just don’t sound the same.  I do have one in my room for the newer music but I rather listen to my old records.” Stan stated.

 

Phil smiled because he knew his uncle meant to say when he listened to his music but was glad he refrained from saying it. “Well at least put something a bit more uplifting than that last one. Jefferson Airplane would be cool.”

 

“Why don’t you come over here and look for it yourself then? I am going to spark one up and then go look for that box I promised Hannah I need to go to bed soon and kick you guys out.” Stan said as he put the record on the shelf with the others and went over to the couch.

chapter 9 part2

Remember how I scoffed at the last e-mail from Chris and him talking about some wall of week 2? UGH Well he was right and I did hit it but I tried and tried to climb it but some one was always hold me down like a weight around my anckles.. they shall remain nameless.  I wish I had supporters cheering me on at the finish line like this update reminds us to think of.  My satisfaction will come from doing it and going HA showed you sucker! LOL   My story just keeps going and going, like I can not get it out and speed up to where I want and need to be.  I did not plan for the whole book to revolve around ONE NIGHT but that is all that has been written on thus far.  I was really into the story and feeding the naugty, flesh, but I am so ready to move on and get to the Glory parts, so I don't feel so ugly myself but all in time.  What was I thinking when I started this endevor? lol

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Hannah starts to rush now back to her car and quickly opens her passenger car door.  She gets in and sits down quickly and puts the bag on the floor. She looks over to Phil still on the phone and lets out a frustrated gasp.

 

She reaches over and takes the phone out of his hands and flips it down holding it away from him.  Phil looks over at her stunned. “HEY! Give it back”.

 

“Nope.  Enough of that phone tonight.  If we are goingto hang out I want your full attention.  NO more interruptions.” She tells him as she puts the phone in her pocket.

 

Phil gives her a playful look and says “You know I will go in there for it, don’t you?  So unless you want my hands down your pants you better hand it over”

 

Hannah heart flutters with the mental image of Phil’s hands down her jeans. “Really?! Well, maybe you won’t get that something pink and juicy I have for you then.” She said referring to the conversation they had before she ran into the gas station.

 

Phil raises his eye brow just a bit and gives her a determined look. “We can talk about that in a moment but for real give me my phone back.  I will turn it off if you are that concerned about it.”

 

Hannah rolls her eyes and gives a sigh, “I was just playing but yea that would be nice if you turned it off.  It is a pet peeve of mine.” She said as she handed him his phone.

 

“Thank you.” He said as he turned it off and shoved it in his pants pocket.

 

“We better get going and check on Stan.  The clerk said something about a hippie in a viper stopping in just before us” Hannah told him.

 

Phil gives Hannah a double take and gasps “Noo he didn’t! Oh man. Not cool.” Phil turns on the car and backs out of the parking spot and into the trafficless road and speeds up to get over to Stan’s.  Hanna was holding on to the arm of her seat as Phil sped out and raced down the deserted road.

 

“Watch your speed.  There is one of those speed traps up ahead and it is getting close to the end of the month.  You know how that’s when cops go ticket crazy.” Hannah said with a warning but Phil paid no attention.  He was pissed at Stan for not going right home and wants to make sure he actual made it to his house.

 

Hannah gazed out her window into the night and kept an eye out for police cars. She hoped none was out because Phil did not take her advice about slowing down. No matter how much she tries to deny it, she has paranoia big time from the little bit of smoke she had done.  She fears that if a cop would pull them over they will just know she has been upto no good tonight and will cart her off to jail and that would be a disaster. She plays out the whole scenario in her head thinking “what would I do? Who would I call? My parents would kill me twice.”

 

Hannah is relieved as Phil slows down and parks in front of a small house with an attached garage and a modest front yard littered with fallen leaves. Phil also feels relief off his mind seeing his rented red viper parked in the driveway.

 

“This is the place.” Phil says as he takes the keys out of the ignition.

 

“Why are you not staying here? Didn’t I hear him say you had a room at a hotel?” Hannah asked.

 

Phil snorts a laugh and answers, “Oh you will see why.  Stan is a slob, especially since Aunt Callie isn’t here anymore to pick up after his butt.” Phil then looks down and has an upset expression. It does hurt to realize over and over that his aunt who was more like a mother to him is dead and he will never see her again.

 

Hannah notes the expression on Phi and sees the pain in his beautiful eyes. She hesitates but decides to go ahead and sensitively asks, “Where is she? Callie?” They have talked about her here and there tonight but never did come out and say if she had left Stan or what the story was.  Her curiosity was killing her.

 

Phil gives a long painful sigh. He answers as he his looking down at the dash board of the little car, “Who knows? Where ever people go after they die.”

 

Hannah feels sad for him and for Stan as she connects now the sad look Stan would get when ever he mentioned her name. “Oh. I am sorry. I did not know.”

 

Phil looks at her with sad eyes but no tears and explains, “Yes, it will be a year in November.  Cancer.”

 

Hannah puts her hand on his as a sign of understanding and says, “I am sorry. It must still be real raw. My grandfather died of lung cancer so I know how that sucks.”

 

Phil looks down at her hands touching his and shakes his head, “ No, you don’t.  She was like my mother.  You are lucky to still have yours. And Uncle Stan is so tore up over it all still.  I am amazed he got up the energy to finally open the coffee house. But that’s good. It will help him I think. But dang! He has made it like a shrine to her and the time they had together, all the stuff fromthe sixties, their happiest times together.”

 

“It’s good you are here with him then.” Hannah said softly and holding back from hugging him. 

 

There is thick silence in the car. Hannah squeezes Phil’s hand lovingly as he looks up to the house with no porch light on.  Hannah tries to think of something to say that will sooth him and maybe break the mood but her mind is a blank. She has never been good with helping people deal with loss.  It was not her gifting but it was something her own mother was wonderful with.  Hannah’s mother, Ella, is always the go to person at church when ever there is a death and some one needs condolence. She always knows just the right thing to say to make people feel better and help with their grief. She always make sure to give extra attention to the family even after months had passed of a loved one moving on, when others would forget and not be as sensitive. Hannah wishes she could call her mother and ask for advice now but knows she can’t. She had lied about where and who she was with and it would take a lot of explaining for her to give her mom the full idea of the situation.

 

Finally Phil squeezed Hannah’s hand back and looked over at her, “Let’s get going.  I promised you a fun time tonight so let’s get to it.”