Monday, December 6, 2004

5 ppl you meet in Heaven and my thoughts on it and Heaven.

I have a few things I could write on today. How my day went yesterday and the first service of the two churches jointed together and the dinner or how we took the kids to the mall (ugh) to see Santa and some of the things that irk me about that, or how I can finally say we are Lice free and give more detail about all that or talk about the song I have in my journal today and why it is special, or comments I have about two journals who seem to be going threw similar situations about certain ppl not all that happy with how they word things or the content of their journals.. but I think I will save all that and throw my 2 cents or so about that movie I saw last night, The 5 People You Meet In Heaven.

I saw it last night with my family and cried here and there and it helped pull me out of my rotten mood I was in for a bit.  I think I am fighting the winter time blues here.. being mad at things when really it is nothing but a thang.. I can wait for a tree to put up, I can wait to buy clothes for that interview, and yes I can even wait to get a new winter jacket and shiver here and there when I do go out in my flannel or sweater, buying Christmas gifts for all my loved ones can wait, getting the dental sugary that I NEED can wait, stamps for cards that need to be sent can also wait.. but some days it just hits me all at the same time and I just feel rotten. Can you see that December is my "test my patience and resolve month"?? But as the saying goes.. all good things come to those who wait. So I am holding on to that and am expecting to be blessed for it.

I saw commercials the last two weeks for that movie The Five People You Meet In Heaven. At first I thought.. oh it's one of those movies, scoff.. lol. But the more I saw the commercials the more I wanted to make it a point to see it.  Sunday was busy busy and I had totally forgotten about it until we came home from the Mall and started making dinner. We turned the TV on and missed the first ten min. of it but still I don't think we missed much of it.

I wasn't going to do an entry on it. I liked the movie very much but it didn't occur to me to write on it, as you can see I have a lot I could write on lol. But when I see that two other journals have watched it and wrote on it I want to get in on the fun. Marcy & Lanny both saw it last night and have entries on it.. so go check out their view point too.

The movie did have a very good message to it, that you are who you are for a reason, you have touched people in ways you will never know.  No life is insignificant and there is a purpose to it all.  That is what I took away from it, I know that the five people in the main charter's heaven also taught him a lesson before he could move on, and Marcy goes into detail about it in her summary of the movie. The movie reminds me of a poem I read in The Purpouse Driven Life, and I made a small website about it on one of my other screen names.

I do think in Heaven there will be lessons to be taught, if we have not learned them here on Earth.  Lessons about God and who he is and he will mature us spiritually if we have not come into that maturity now.  Like a school " )  And here is the sticky part, where I talk about religion and my beliefs. I know many avoid it for fear of offending some one who reads.. but I think we all know by now I don't care who I offend (at least on that subject) and since this is my journal I write as I choose. No one will be taught those lessons or step one foot in heaven, if they have not made a choice here on earth to believe him and live for him. For the wages of sin is death, we all fall short of the Glory of God, we die ONCE, and then the judgment. We all deserve hell and an eternity separated from God, but he has made a way to cover our sins, Psalms 103:12 says, As far as the east is from the west, [so] far hath he removed our transgressions from us, That is the Gift He gave us on the cross, so that our sins may be covered by the blood of his perfect Lamb, and judgment be passed over, but those who reject that gift, will get what they deserve, sadly. No one can live a perfect life with out sin, for even our thoughts are judged, have you ever hated some one? To God that is the same as if you murdered that person, have you ever had thoughts of cheating or had lust for some one other than your spouse? To God that is the same as if you went out and had the affair.

In the movie and I assume in the book(the book is on my list now to read) the main charter does talk about God and slightly about his relationship with him, how during the war he made "deals" with him and then after disappointment ran from him and hid from him.  He asks do you think he even knows I am here, and the person says she thought most certainly she thinks he does.  I know going in to a rant about all that will be pointless.. this was not a Christian movie, but a secular warm fuzzy movie.  I think the main charter Eddie is like most who people out there, he has some scense about God, he has heard about him and talked about him and to him here and there, but has never truly come to know him and trust him.  He is disappointed with how he has lived his life and thinks it is a failed one and had no point or purpose, not how he wanted it to turn out. And that is why I like how the movie pointed out how he was where he was supposed to be when he was supposed to be. There was a plan for his life, even if he didn't know about it. God can use people, even if they don't trust in him.  But I wish it would of gone on more about God himself and his great love for all and how in Heaven that yes all tears will be wiped away and that now we see in part but soon we shall have full understanding. How in heaven we will serve and worship God, gladly and joyfully.  Heaven will not be all about you and your idea of perfection, but it will be all about God.

In heaven there will be rewards for the things you have done here on Earth and for your service to him, the Bible speaks of the many earned crowns that will be cast at the feet of Jesus. I have also heard it said that in Heaven people shine, and depending on your reward for your works is how brightly you will shine. I also know there is a place in the Lord's house, for he said there are many rooms, so in Heaven we will LIVE with him.  Revelations speaks of the earth passing away and God creating a new Earth with descending on to it a new Heaven, so that God will dwell with us.  In Heaven we will have jobs to do, on that new earth,depending on what we have done here and now and shown what we can be responsible with and we will cheerfully do it.

I look forward to Heaven, and living for eternity with God, for that is where my true home is, I am just a visitor here.  What I look forward to the most is seeing those who I have touched and have touched me in some way that I may not realize now. That person who may come up to me and say, Remember that web site you had up, I read it and because of you I am here or that person who had no money and I gave so they could be blessed and them comingup to thank me for being obedient, or for me going up to those who gave when I was in need and telling them, you know that food you donated to the food pantry that time, it feed me and my family for a week, or thank you for giving, donating to that ministry, because of that I was able to hear that tape that planted seeds in my heart to come to know Jesus. How awesome that is all going to be!

Annalisa Just posted a realy great poem and I think it ties into this post very well.. so check it out too.

Lyrics to my current song playing.. Beautiful.

These are the org. lyrics.. couldn't find the ones to this perticular verson, but still Beautiful.

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O come, O come, Emmanuel
And ransom captive Israel
That mourns in lonely exile here
Until the Son of God appear
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.

O come, Thou Rod of Jesse, free
Thine own from Satan's tyranny
From depths of Hell Thy people save
And give them victory o'er the grave
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.

O come, Thou Day-Spring, come and cheer
Our spirits by Thine advent here
Disperse the gloomy clouds of night
And death's dark shadows put to flight.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.

O come, Thou Key of David, come,
And open wide our heavenly home;
Make safe the way that leads on high,
And close the path to misery.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.

O come, O come, Thou Lord of might,
Who to Thy tribes, on Sinai's height,
In ancient times did'st give the Law,
In cloud, and majesty and awe.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.  

Saturday, December 4, 2004

HOW MANY TIMES MUST WE GO THREW THIS!?

AGAIN!!!!!!!!! GURRRR!!!!

 

Back to the combing and the shampooing and the washing of all the sheets, coats and boiling the brushes and combs.  We did invest in better lice combs.. those plastic ones suck.

So much for me going to Good Will this weekend.. What I would of spent there I now have to use on the shampoo and the combs.  And we went ahead and cut Annie's hair to shoulder lenth.. just like me now.  I will have to post a pic some time soon.

Sat Six & Wed Wierd Words... just go with it ppl!

Sat Six Questions:

1. Think back to weddings you have attended (other than your own):  what was the nicest part of the one you liked the most? Thinking... besides my own I have been to maybe 3 weddings. My two fav was my cousin Jonny's(who as a kid I had a big crush on) and our best friend's Jared and Mitchelle. The first one was at Christmas time so I remember  the winter theme and the Christmas tree.. plus I had my own camera and that started me on my picture freak thing.  Second Jared and Mitchell.. Zane and Annie and Josh was in the wedding party (I would of been but I was so big preggers with Sophia, finding a dress would of been a joke) but my fave about thier wedding was the ice sculptuer.. dolphins jumping out of the water.. she paid a pretty penny for it too.

2. What is your favorite color and which room of your home has the most of this color in it? I love Lime Green and Purple, but none of my decor reflects that...most of our stuff is second hand so beggers can't be choosers.. mostly wood. My clothing reflects my fav colors the most. But we are talking about redoing our bed room and have a lavernder bed set and paint to match.

3. What is your favorite kind of popcorn:
A) Unsalted
B) Buttered
C) Extra Butter
D) Kettle Corn
E) Caramel Corn
D. Kettle Corn.. but real kind that you find at the zoo or Grant's Farm.. micro wave just isnt the same!
4. Take a little time (!!) for a quick inventory of the clocks in your home:  how many do you have and what is the widest difference between any two of them? WE have about 5.. Kitchen (and the battieries are dead so it is stuck at 10:45) Microwave.. another dead one so it is 00.00, VCR, our bedroom alarm clock and my son's bedroom alarm clock.  Right now the bedroom one is flashing at what ever time the power flickered at and my son's is the correct time matching the vcr. ohhh and least i forget my compuer clock.. about a min. slower than our vcr clock.. go figure.

5. When was the last time you used a real rotary dial telephone to place a call? I have nooooo clue.. probly at my Grandma's when we lived with her like 12 yrs ago.

6. READER'S CHOICE QUESTION #34 from
Shannon:  What is your favorite sport and why? Fave sport??? hummm.. Well STL is a big sports town.. we have it all except professional basketball.  Witch one would I rather sit and watch?  I have to say Foot Ball.. American style. Go RAMS & Packers!

Wednesday's Wierd Word in a sentance.

Every one saw William as Albiborontiphoscophornio because he looked down on ufozologist. He thought people who believed in UFOs were of the Schemiel and Schlimazl kind.. loosers! Yes, not only was old Billy pompous but he was also zetetic and would not believe in anything he could not see or touch for himself.   (def. for the strange words can be found at Pat's What If Journal or in a handy dandy Thesorous!}  

 



Friday, December 3, 2004

I know it is wayyyyyy too soon for this but it is a thought

Publish Your NaNoWriMo Book with iUniverse

Found this on the NaNoWriMo homepage as a link.  Oh for a mer $300-600 (depending on the package I choose) I can get my book published! Wow that is alot of $$$$ but it would make my book listed on all the major net book seller's websites and I get a ISBN#, plus all these other perks..

So that would be something to save for.. or take donations for lol. Any one want to partner up with me or be my supporter? LOL

Well I have alot of work to do to the book before even thinking of publishing it, I have to finish it for one, and then the editing ofcourse. But I promised I would take off this month from it.

Anyway.. Just had to put that in here

Oh and I have to give a quick pimp out to Pat's other Journal "What IF" He is also writting a book and this is his journal dedicated to that and tips for us who are into writting also.. got to love his Grammar Corner and Weird Word Wednesday.

I have a thing for smart brainy types and he is one of them lol jk.. I am married. But ladies he is single! I admire and respect him greatly (even if he doesn't read or comment in my ~J)

Going on a Job Hunt, Going to find a Good one, We'r not Scared, We'v Been there before

For what ever reason, Josh didn't work yesterday (I dkn why, ther weather was great!).  So I had him home with me all day yesterday.  The night before that I DID stay up late late on the puter, catching up on my ~Js I read, since I am sooooo far behind.  I am delighted to read that two of my fav ppl are on the Editors List this week!!! WTG Barb & AnnieO!!!!!!!

Josh knew I was up too late for my own good and couldn't help but make my morning impossible lol. He is fun that way don't you know. He wanted me to go out and apply at that factory I said I would. Ugggg.. So I get in the shower and get nice and clean and smell all pretty and get dressed.  I also was kinda dragging out my morning because I was hoping that a certain temp agency would call me back for an interview and I could also scedule to go in there since Josh was off.. but they didnt.  And if they did, what would I wear any how??! lol I put on a nice pair of blue jeans and this cozey winter sweater (since I don't have a winter jacket yet and I didn't want to wear flannel to apply for jobs) that had a red and white and hint of blue design on it. I put make up on! I tried to do something with my hair.. a differnt part, that hippy part down the middle thing is getting old. Not the most professional looking, but I clean up nicely I think. Well except for the old pair of van tennies that I wore, I don't have anything else right now.  As I am getting ready I am talking to big Amy on the phone, yacking it up, killing time.  She told me to go to the gas station by her house, she knows the manager and for me to tell her my situation, she knows she would hire me.  And if she was to be my sitter that would be very conveniant huh. So I put that on my to do list since I was going to be out and about.  I print out my resume and also add to it names and numbers for my personal refrances so I wouldn't forget.  I look up online the company and it's phone number and made Josh call them for directions since they neglected to put an address on thier website.

The factory is very close to my house actualy, maybe at most a 10-15 min. drive. Yes that would be conveniant.  I get there and the place is huge!!! I park and pray for confidance and guidance before I venture out and find the personel office.  Seems like I get there just as the whole plant is going on lunch.  I pass a gaggel of men in flannel on my way up the side walk to the office.  The office part is up these tall stairs and all adorned in wood that lead to this doctor's office lobby looking area. Even had the slide glass window to boot. And it is closed. Um.. ok.. I gently knock on it to get the ladies attention. No answer, so I knock a bit louder feeling like bolting out of there already.  Eventaly a nicely dressed office type girl oppens the window and askes what she can do for me and I asked about an application.  She said no problem and asked if I wanted to fill it out there or take it with me.  Here I say, (I don't want to make two trips ya know). She hands me a clip board and pen and closes the window.

I sit down and start to fill it out.  It was a simple one actualy but I kick myself for not putting the address and phone numbers of my previous employers on my resume.. but I dont know them.. that was soooo long ago! When it asked what position I was seeking I checked off both office and floor.. never know and at this point I am willing to take anything.  When it asked what matchines I can operate or if I have a forklift licence I giggle.. nope nada. When it asks my wpm for typing I smile and put 55-60.  I did test myself this week and if I am warmed up that is what I can do.  As I am filling mine out a young man, dressed in work cloths comes up the stairs and knocks on the window also to get an application. So I wasn't all alone anymore but I still was nervious as I copied the info from my resume to the application.  I finished and gave it back to the lady and asked if I could also leave my nice professional resume with her, sure she will even paper clip it for me... aww thanks!  She said if they are intrested I will get a call in one to two working days.  Ok I am out of there!  I did my part now it is up to them if my application looks worthy for an interview.  I don't have a feeling it is, but you never know.. as Josh told me I am negative : P  I did have to walk past all these guys sitting out eating thier lunch... I felt eyes on my back and couldn't help but think of the conversation I had with Amy and also with Lori about how men harrass women in factories.. but ofcourse if I was to tell Josh that he would think I am negative and since they didn't say anything to me but only looked me up and down, what did I have to complain about... gurr.. I am not used to being looked at, I like my nice cacoon of a home lol.

I shoot on over to the gas station my friend recomend to me. Yep in big black letters on thier sign NOW HIRING, MIDNIGHTS. MIDNIGHTS! Amy forgot to tell me that part or maybe she just didn't notice that big sign?  Well I needed a soda and pick up cigarttes anyways so I parked and went in.  There is only a cute guy working the counter (kinda like the clerk I wrote in my story I think lol) but he is not the mannager I was told to talk with.  So I ask him as I check out if they are only hiring midnights.  He sighs but has a nice smile and says yep but told me to take an application anyhow. He knows the other station is looking for all shifts (the one that happens to be closer to my house). So I took one from him and I plan on filling it out today and maybe dropping it by.

I get home and Josh is so happy with me.  Also so horny since it has been well over a week and a half, hehehee.. skipping that part, you don't need those details. But it was no accident the girls was down for thier naps real quickly. ANYWAYSSSSSSSSSS  I was very sleepy and wanted a nap and dozed on the couch for awhile. (sleepy cuz I didn't have proper sleep the night before! silly dirty minded reader!)

I awake to Josh shaking me.. Mary, Mary.. get up! That temp place is on the phone for you. Oh Darn.. I was dreaming about Phil and Hannah from my book!  I was tempted to tell him to take a message but he shoved the phone in my hands. I did a quick phone interview with the lady on the phone, reminisant of the one I had with the rent a car place (btw I got a rejection letter from them this week) but she seemed intrested and made an apointment with me for next week. Soooo that is something there huh!  But now I am looking at my calander.. I have a doc apointment that same day but it looks like it should be spaced apart enough and I can make them both.. If Amy will babysit for me.. she was vauge about agreeing to, she had to check her calander to make sure she didn't have any appointments. (PLEASE GOD DON'T LET THIS BE ANNIE AND THE ZOO ALL OVER AGAIN) I have to go to the follow up appointment since I had to cancle it this week. The thing has srunk and gone away but anotherone has popped up.. in a not so nice backside place, plus I need a regular exame.  I don't know what is up with these cyst things.. they say they are no big deal but I have never had them before now. One was scary but two.. what the heck!  I am one that thinks our health reflects what is going on in our life and also they are attacks from the enemy.. but I will not go into all that right now.

 I am hoping that this weekend, even though we are very broke, I can get up to Good Will and find something decent to wear for this interview (and maybe a winter jacket and some mirical shoes?).

Last night I did go to a Papared Chief Party.  It was fun and nice to hang out with some of my friends from church. I was so tempted to buy all these kitchen things, that I so need for my house.. but I was good! I did get some good ideas and a yummy easy recipe for fudge.. sooo easy.. chocolate frosting and chocolate chips melted together and spread into a pan to set up. And these tastey cinnoman rolls shaped like a Christmas tree.. perfect.. cinnoman rolls is our traditional Christmas morning Breakfast.  The thing about Pappared Chief is everything is baked on these cooking stones? You may of seen them at the store and thought they was just for pizza, but they are not.  I dont have one and the rep insisted the rolls will not work right with a reg baking sheet.. so a baking stone is on my list.. and you know how long that list is getting.

Ohhh and one more thing before I go.. DID YOU KNOW.. JOSH AND I ARE KNOWN DRUG ADDICTS?!!! WTH.

That is the funniest thing I ever heard! I may smoke here and there (and it has been forever since I have!) but a drug addict I am not! AND JOSH FOR SURE ISN'T! I am tempted to call the person up who made the slanderist comment and call her out on it. Little Amy's grandmother (a real peice of work, and I pray and pray for her) told Little Amy's mom that. She heard that little Amy had spent the weekend with us last week and Thanksgiving (not like she invited her own family for the Holiday mind you). I thought my inlaws was bad but they are saints compared to this women.  SHe is so bitter and sad and makes these kinds of things up about ppl constantly.  A big time gossiper and user of people.  Riley had it up to here with her and cut off all comunication with this lady (finally) and she is none to happy about it.. she even threatened him and spread lies about him and had her husband go over there and cuss him out, the breaking point for Riley was when they called him the N word! Wow.  Drama Drama.. I can't help but wonder what makes ppl like this, and what a missirble life they must have to want to spread it to others.  Well I do know, because she lives in this sad world and is of it, I pray that what ever happens she comes into a relationship with God, he can change the most hardest of hearts and make all things new.

So Lord, Help me be a light, help me to forgive those who talk nasty about me for no cause and to love them as you love them.

 

Wednesday, December 1, 2004

You Know It's The Last Day Of NaNoWriMo When.. & What Kind Of Blogger Are You?

You know it's the last day of NaNoWriMo when you have 7,000 words to go to make the 50,000 to win and you feel oh so smart when the idea comes to you to stop using contractions, more words that way! can't into can not

You know it's the last day of NaNoWriMo when your family haS finnaly gotten the clue that this is important to you and have stayed clear of you and your computer, only to chim in here and there saying "I don't hear you typing! TYPE, TYPE, TYPE!!!"

You know it's the last day of NaNoWriMo when you check your word counter every two parghraphs and moan with disapointment when you see how far you still have to go.

You know it's the last day of NaNoWriMo when it is 11:15 p.m. and you have only got 1,000 or so words to go but you seem to of all of suden gotten a brain freeze!

You know it's the last day of NaNoWriMo when the clock hits 11:59 p.m. and you feel defeated thinking you have lost and fallen short but check your word count anyways only to discover by some mircle your word count its... 50,033!!!!! And the tears well up and you feel JOY & Acomplishment!

You know it's the last day of NaNoWriMo when all you can think about after getting the cute icon as your prize is to proudly post it on all your webpages and blogs!!!!!

NOW! I can catch up on the negected journals I read and feel like a member of J~Land again!  Found this quiz and had to share what it said.  Do you agree?????

Ummm Ok? Does that really describe my blog?? I don't know if that is how I would rate it but that is what the quiz said so it has got to be true!! Right? LOL

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