Josh Is in da HOUSE

 Josh came home yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Sneeky butt came home early!  And YOU know cuz I stayed up the night before reading  I was mega tiered and was napping when he arrived.  I hadn't got a thing done around the house, I needed a shower, the kids was running wild and I was very ashamed .  I thought he was going to be  But he wasnt, he was just happy to be home.  That was not the home comming I wanted to give him, WISH he had called me to let me know he was going to be like 5 hours early!  But that is what I get for being lazy and being too much into my book and into the net.   I will do better this week.

So I sent him right away out to the store!  I have been out of  since Sunday! LOL and this gave me a chanse to take a. .  He is gone for over an hour, and turned his phone off!  He said he did that so work couldn't reach him lol and he was getting movies too.  When He got home HE says wants to    YA RIGHT!More like.. 

 

 and that is just fine with me!  I have needs too

But seriously, I am glad he is home, even if he has to leave again tonight for another week or so.  I am glad these out of town jobs are rare.  We sat down and had a talk about stuff and junk and whats going on with this job, and ofcourse it's stuff I am forbiden to write about.  It is not like he is a secret agent or anything, he is just a  painter but he is always fearful that things could get back to the wrong type of ppl and in the past before I knew about this rule I was like this..

with my friends about his job stuff and it did cause a bad situation once.  So best policey is what is said between husband and wife stays that way.  But there are some stuff that I need to vent about and I can't and that is megga frustrating.  Let's just put it this way, I have standing orders that if anything ever happens to him at work My first call is to OSHA, then his union BA, Then Lawyers, NO MATTER WHAT.  NICE HUH!

BUT I can say this.. I am very proud of my man!  He does what is right and as long as he does that, even if he looses his job for it, I will stand by him and he will have my respect.

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It's a love/hate relationship with Mr King!

Ok so instead of going on my mega cleaning spree I finished my book "Song Of Susanna" the VI book in the Dark Tower by Stephen King.  As always he messes up the ending and leaves you haning with these books!!  I have many cuss words I would like to spew right now lol but what good would it do, guess I will have to look for the next book when it comes out in Sep.  I wonder if I can reserve it before it comes out with the library?? LOL doubt that!

about to do rant so..

WARNING SPOILER IF YOU HAVNT READ THIS BOOK AND WANT TO...

 

WTH (what the heck instead of the F)? HE PUTS HIMSELF IN THE BOOK??? AND KILLS HIMSELF??  Come oonnnn isnt that a bit.. what's the word? norsistic? lol  But I guess if this is to be his LOTR and his grand fanaly he would do that.  Does he think he should of died in his car accident and wishes that he did so he writes it in???  If that happened he forsure would of had a bunch of pissed off fans and that would probly hold many a vodoo sayonsas to bring him back from Hell so he could finish the darn thing.  OK. it has been very obvoious threw out all his writtings there are refrances to this series of books and all along he has been writting it out using these other books, as suddle as the hints are, you can see them.  I noticed that longggg ago.  It's that hook that makes you want to go out and by the next one he writes, and it sucks, and I long ago gave up on reading all his works.  ONE MORE MONTH and I can move on and never look back.

END OF RANT... Resume reading now..

So I came on here about two hours ago to do this entry and got side tracked looking for Stephen King or Dark Tower blinkies...but I guess there just isn't any out there!  This is when I wish I knew how to make the!  But what I did find is there are a bunch of twisted fans out there lol.  I really enjoyed this one site that made his own funny cartoons about the gunslinger and oh the Man in black for President.. a must see for any fan!  So the best I could find was some of this art work.  I love the one with the roses, and Roland giving you that Dirty Harry glare.. gurrrrrrr (can you tell I am counting down till Josh gets home *blush*)

        

  

Some good links..

The Dark Tower- The Really Abridged Version (with the LMBO cartoons)

The Dark Tower Compendium -- www.DarkTowerCompendium.com (a must see site for any DT fan!!!!!!)

and ofcourse: StephenKing.com: The Official Stephen King Web Site 

and

The Dark Tower Official Web Site - move

Praying The Lord's Prayer If you ever say this prayer, you must read this webpage! Awesome!

This is my life..

Since Josh has been out of town we talk at least twice a day.  So it feels like he has not really been gone, since he still has a presence here at home with his calls. He is due to come home tomorrow evening and go to school Wed and then leave that evening again for another full week. Guess I better get my lov'n  in tomorrow night. I am not used to this, not sure if I like this so much.

 I have been totally lazy since he has been gone, so I have to do some monster cleaning tonight and tomorrow and make it look like I am not nothing more than a glorified baby-sitter lol. I forsure need to either drive him back Wed night or him find a ride. I HAVE TO HAVE TRANSPORTATION! I have dentist appointments and school shopping to do and the normal house hold needs to shop for. I am mega frustrated with our bank too. I got a few notices for over drafts! Whyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!! The money is there, deposited last Thursday! I was told that it would be available the next day! So my water bill bounced and another check for $40.31, not sure what it was for. The water bill was ran threw twice, so I have double charges on that. I have over $100 in bank charges cuz of this mess! That is $100 I need right now for school stuff and dentist stuff! UGH I hate banking and bills. What ever happen to paying for everything with cash? You can't even do that anymore, you have to give a money order and that costs extra ya know.

I have a long list of school supplies for the older two and Annie is in dire need of new shoes, socks and underwear. This last weekend here in MO was a tax free shopping weekend on school supplies and because I didn't have a car I couldn't take advantage of it.  I was thinking I could maybe go to a thrift store here and there and maybe find some nice school clothes for the kids, but with this mess at the bank I doubt that will be possible.  I have to pay the gas bill and for Zane's dentist work this week too. 

Ever feel like you are still a kid playing house?  I do and it is NO FUN ANY MORE!  I don't want to grow up, I am a ToysR'US KID.....  

Just some thoughts as I gaze up at the clouds...

"No one should ever be too busy or pressured or tired to make a time and place for God in their lives. After all, He has to manage the whole world, and He's never too busy for us." - Sadie and Bessie Delany

 

"The world takes its notions of God from the people who say that they belong to God's family. They read us a great deal more than they read the Bible. They see us; they only hear about Jesus Christ." - Alexander Maclaren

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I was blessed to be able to go to church today.  Having no car since Josh is out of town with it, I figured I would miss it this week.  A friend from church called me Friday to remind me it was my turn to clean church and I was kinda up set cuz I forgot and also I was unable to full fill this commitment since I didn't have the transportation.  My friend said it was no big deal, they would do it for me and also give me and the kids a ride to church.  : )   Bob and Nancy are really some sweet ppl, almost so sweet it hurts lol.  They took us out to lunch after church and we enjoyed "breaking bread" with each other and fellowship.

The topic of the sermon today touched on Holiness and that we should be Holy for God is Holy.  It wasn't a beat you over the head and be good or go to hell sermon.  It was more like a history lesson and what Holiness is.  I am sure I was meant to hear it and I have to soak in what it all means.  I know I fall short in many ways and even been complacent about some areas in my life, so how can I be Holy?  How can anyone be Holy like God?  How can we be that perfect?  Basically what I got was what it means to be Holy is to be set apart, to be different, but in a good way, to be a peculiar people, to not conform to this world's standards but be transformed by God's.  Can I MAKE myself Holy?  No.  Only God can, for if I try, I will fail.  But he is working on me, changing me from Glory to Glory, authoring and perfecting my faith, he lives in me and fills me, giving me a new nature.  I just have to walk in that nature and not my old sinful one.  I confess I have not been walking by the spirit lately, not been in the Word, and my prayer life could use a face lift.  All things I can work on, God will do the rest.

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I also have been enjoying the comments on mylast post and glad everyone put their two cents in.  Yes, it is a touchy subject and something that contributes to dividing us as a country I think.  As I have said many times in previous posts, I don't look down or pass judgment on women who have had an abortion, but extend the hand of compassion and understanding, for I have been there. BUT, I do get kinda miffed with the mind set of this culture of death.  Choice, we all have choice, weather legal or illegal. "I would not personally kill a child weather it was five min. old or five years old, yet I don't have a problem with those who choose too, it is their choice and any law banning that choice is trying to legislate morality.  The only difference between a pre-born child and a born one is it's stage of development and location.  So what is the difference if we make it legal to kill one that is just later in development?"  That's just a little translation I hear in my head when ppl say, I would not personally get an abortion but I support other's women's right to choose one.  If it is soo wrong to kill a baby 2min. after it is born and toss it in the toilet, why should it be any different in seeing a pre-born one the same way?  Oh, ya that's right, it isn't human till it comes out of the womb??  Declassifying a person as non-human is how we got the Holocaust and Legalized Slavery.  Thought our society had evolved beyond that?  Sigh, guess I am wrong on that.

Should a women ware this T~Shirt Proudly?

                          

Sold by Planned Parenthood, the creator of this shirt is an abortion avocat who says she was sick of hearing stories of women feeling ashamed after they came out of the clinics after their abortion when  faced  pro-lifers calling them baby haters.

There has been cheers and jeers over this shirt.  I heard about it a few weeks ago and just scoffed.  Not so much at the t~shirt, I am half tempted to get one, if any thing it would be a conversation starter about my story and how God has brought me into a place of healing (would have to spray paint or embroider on it the word REGRET). But the fact that PP or other abortion providers should profit even MORE from the taking of an innocent life?  The $300-2,500 they charge for their service is not enough, they have to sell Holiday Cards and T-shirts to feed their profit minded hearts.  If they think this is such a good thing for a women, for them to feel more proud over something that is so wrong, why don't they just hand them out for free, include it in the cost of the "therapeutic abortion"?

Will women who have had an abortion wear this shirt proudly??  Who do you know who has had an abortion is ever proud of it and wants to advertise about it?  Isn't that the whole thing about it, that it is no one's business what they do with their own body, not her husbands, not her boyfriends, not her parents, not even God's?  Isn't that why so many are in such an uproar over privacy rights?  When the recent court cases over the parcel-birth abortion ban happen and the Attorney General wanted the records of those who had this proceger to just see how medically necessary it was, and prove that this proseger is not safe or rare there was a big out cry about privacy rights. 

I know any time I have to go to an OBGYN they ask if you have ever had an abortion on the forms, and it is something I have to check yes on, and hate it every time.  A T-shirt saying I had one will not make me feel Any better about it, nor should it.  Just another case of America wanting to celebrate sin.  An abortion is nothing anyone should ever feel proud of and if you do, then you have a cold heart.

As a pro-lifer who has stood at an abortion clinic and know others who have, NEVER did I nor heard any one else shout INSULTS to these women being lead to the slaughtering house.  What is often done by pro-lifers who stand at the gates, is prayer and also a voice for the innocent children.  Many pro-lifers, if given the chance to talk to one of these women, would show them alternatives to abortion, starting with an ultra sound to show them the heart beat and development of the baby they are caring and give them information where they can get real help.  You can't do that by shouting insults can you?  You can't give compassion by hating someone but by loving on them.  Yet real love tells the truth, doesn't sugar coat it and pander.  MOM don't kill your baby today, you will regret it, give yourself and your child a chance, you never know what you are capable of until you give yourself the opportunity.  Yet the abortion advocates love to say those who stand at clinics are ppl who hate and spew insults, and are dangerous.  I am sure there has been a nut case here and there, but they are not the norm. What the Abortion Providers hate is those ppl standing there take away business.

 

And that's my rant for the day.

FRIDAY THE 13TH! LMBO

Josh called me this morning.  He said, "Now honey, I just called to let you know I am fine, just incase the St. Louis News picks up the story."  What!What Story???  I snapped awake and sat up in bed.  Aperantly there was an equipment malfuntion with the lift they use and the guy he was working with was stuck but Josh said it really wasn't all that big of a deal.

 

But since Cape Girardeau is such a hick place and does't have any thing better to report on, the news crew and reporters was out in full force according to Josh. That is why he called me, to warn me but lol St Louis didn't cover it. He said the police and the firedepartment, his unoin rep, company rep and a whole town of gawkers was out there.  I can't go into details because Josh forbids me to when ever talking about his work, lest it get back to the wrong person, but the jist of it is no big deal, everything is fine. 

That's Friday The 13th for ya!!     LMBO

What did I do today??  Fed some of my obsession for Jem!

I did alot of web surfing and right clicking.  I have soooo many pics I can make several webpages.  Here is my first one, it is just the Box Art and the next one is going to be more of the cartoon.  I did make another screen name just for these pages, to keep the space separate.  OFCOURSE I could not resist and starting a JEM JOURNAL.  So for all you other Jem fans out there, check it out, let me know what you think of my first entry and of my first webpage.  I will be adding more probly tomorrow.