Monday, June 6, 2005

Allways Something... Lord fill this gap between wanting and doing.

Broken Air Conditioner and dealing with Landlord to get a repairman out, Repairman that looks at me like I am stupid, letter from school about Missed Chicken Pox Shots for school registration, phone calls with pediatrics saying she should of gotten it at age 1 but didn't, looking up health department info to get missed shots, getting kids ready for camps, finding a sitter for our Wed night home buying class that starts THIS WEEK, Bills, house cleaning, cooking, weekly shopping,stupid tv movies attacking my world views, play dates, hunting for boxes to start packing up the house, de cluttering, long over due letter writing to relatives, making plans for home fellowship meeting this Friday, keeping in contact with ladies about doing the sign for Abortion & Breast Cancer Link. needing to finished the questionier for that author about my abortion...

The list could go on and on.

And that list makes me sound busy but really I have been feeling lethargic, complacent, just BLAAAAAAAA.

Ever been in a place where you KNOW you should be approaching God in prayer but just can't seem to get there? I'll think.. Ok I know I need to spend time with you Lord, it has been way too long since we have really talked, but then something prevents me from going to that place, from me stripping it all down and just be with HIM.  I want to pray, I want to fellowship, I want to be in his Will, I want to be on fire, I want to walk in his power and strenth... but it seems there is a big gap between wanting and doing.  I use every excuse in the book and like there is this big road block up between Him and I, and where that leaves me is withering.

And I can just hear Satan giving a chuckle too.

To quote Tobby Mac, "God, take this place between you and me and FILL IT UP!"

(by list member Debbie Preuss, May 29, 2005)

Where is your focus, what do you see?
When you look around, do you feel free?
Focus on the Leader, His name is Jesus Christ
Focus on Him, you'll find the purpose of life
Never waiver from following, His precious frame
When you're weak call out, to His Holy name
No matter what happens, fix your eyes above
Look into His eyes, see His unconditional love
Things will come around you, to try and distract
Keep your eyes on Him, your life on His track
Don't miss out on the blessing, Hewants to use you
To do His work, as He makes your life brand new
Hold tightly to Jesus, when your sight grows dim
When you don't understand, simply cling to Him
Don't waiver from your focus, blessing will be yours
Jesus Christ will help you, for you He adores
He will be your strength, when you are too weak
He will be your fortress, when His arms you seek
Keep your focus on Him, He'll show you the way
If you are lost, just call out and pray
Keep your eyes on the Lord, keep your focus straight and true Reach out for Jesus, He's waiting for you


A "WOV Note" from Women of Virtue

Decide to Be Daring.  "Because of our knowledge of the Bible and because our hearts were attuned to God's leading in our lives, when God spoke to my heart, it was not ambiguous.  We heard loud and clear what the Holy Spirit wanted us to do -- we only had to choose to obey.  It felt like a risk, but that is what being daring feels like!  It was a risk well worth it.  Obedience is trust in the person of God.  The key question, the big decision point, is then, 'How well do I know God?  Do I really trust Him with all my life?  And if I trust Him, what is He asking me to do so my life reflects a life of character?'"

Pam Farrel, The 10 Best Decisions a Woman Can Make

This week's verse of encouragement:

"Abraham trusted God, and when God told him to leave home and go far away to another land which He promised to give him, Abraham obeyed. Away he went, not even knowing where he was going."
Hebrews 11:8 (The Living Bible)

"But if you are unwilling to obey the Lord, then decide today whom you will obey.  Will it be the gods of your ancestors beyond the Euphrates or the gods of the Amorites here in this land?  But as for me and my family, we will serve the Lord."
Joshua 24:15 (The Living Bible)

As for Me and My House we shall serve the Lord.. that is a vers that keeps coming up in my life.  I think I have seen or read or heard it at least 3 differnt times, in differnt places this week.


  1. soetimes I giv e it up and sit back and dont pray. It seems then is when he comes to me closest. Someteims we try to hard!!!!!!!!!!! thats all there is to it. its out will and working not HIS and HIS is always better.

  2. Dear Bea I have beent there more times than I can count.  Your life is cluttered with good things!  The question is which are His things.  Drop all but the life sustaining necessary things for one day, even one morning.....go to him in prayer.  Don't worry if it doesn't feel right at the start.  Stick with it.  Tell him all about it.  Read your Word and be quiet and listen for His answers.  Let him tell you which crops to sow.  God Bless you and yours!  -  Barbara

  3. Sounds busy!  How do you have the time to even make an entry about it? : )  I guess like me your pc time is the recreation time you need to get away from it all...