Almost time to go get my children from their cousin's house. So what did I do to take advantage of a very very rare night of being kidless AND husbandless???? NOTHING!! The house was sooooooo quiet it was almost painful. I would of gone out but I had no one to go out with and I am not the type of person that goes to a movie or goes bowling alone.
I played on the computer until about 2 a.m. (tisk tisk) When I finally got all caught up with journal reading and the chat rooms seemed to be too blah I put my away message on, turned off all the lights, locked the doors and went into my lonely bed. I was flipping threw 500 channels with nothing on. I turned down the tv and just started to hug Josh's pillow.. and smell it. Yes I said smell it. I have come to the conclusion that I can never live single (and wouldn't want to if I could) and my children is what color's my world. I will appreciate them all the more and maybe that is why God gave me this alone time, so I could see exactly how good I have it.
I was deep in these thoughts, missing my husband and wishing I could talk to him when the phone rang. I jumped out of bed and ran to the phone hoping that maybe my husband sensed how lonely I was and it was him calling me. To my surprise it was my friend Amy asking if I was up. LOL ya I was up, kinda.
She was somewhere near Mt. Vernon, IL on her way to Panama City, FL. Her son is in a little league baseball tournament down there and she thought the directions she got were screwy and wanted me to see if I could find some better ones off the net (because I am the Internet Queen around here don't you know) So I went to the same place she got her directions from, Mapquest. I was there earlier today getting directions to my husband's cousin's house and I can testify they can give you screwy almost too detailed directions that can make it confusing. I looked and looked for a better site but found nothing. I told her to get a map from a gas station and plot her trip on it, that will make her feel more confidant. She claims she doesn't know how to read a map. I wonder how that is possible, doesn't everyone take geography in school, and I know she was a good student. We lamented how we wish I was there to help her on her journey, it would of made a fun trip, and how Josh would be laughing his butt off when he heard that SHE called me for directions. He seems to think I am the worst when it comes to giving and taking directions.
So Amy and I talked for about an hour or so and then I told her I had to go to bed, call me when you get there. I drifted off to sleep a bit less lonely. I did set my alarm for 8:00 because I was going to go to church. But when my eyes fluttered open at 10:45 I knew that wasn't going to happen so I drifted back to deep sleep. Around 12:00 the phone woke me up with my husband's sweet voice on the other end.
He is still not sure how long he is going to be out of town but I pray that it will either be cut short or my loneliness will subside. Maybe after I go and get the kids we will go and do something special?