This is the second time in Journal Land where we are faced with death of a friend, yes I know Raven was a hoax but the feelings are just as real right. It could have been a true sanrio with her just as it is with Frank. What makes me so up set is, I feel like I did not do my part, my job. I never once talked to them, even though I read his journal often. I never showed the Love of Christ to him or spoke in to his life. And now I will never be able to, all bets are off, chances are gone, the end is the end. The fact is I didn't love him as I should have. I didn't have him set on my heart and to pray for his salvation. I know ultimately God knows for if he wanted to he would have sent his servants to him, would he of rejected them? Or would he embrace Jesus with arms wide open? I think I am sad because the though of Frank in hell is worse than I can bear. Yes, I know some don't believe in Hell, and dang it is so insensitive for me to even mention it. Well, this is my journal, my thoughts and my world view. If you choose not to believe in Hell or Heaven or Jesus, you will just have to wait and see when you get there, but Now is the time to make your choices, don't wait till the end, your end. You make a choice every day weather to receive or reject and those choices is what determines your final destination.
Sunday, December 7, 2003
Part 1 Venting and unloading
In journal land we are all up set, and grieving over a loss, a true loss, of a favorite friend. My soul is so very sad right now and there is so much I would like to put out there, but know that it will not be popular I may refrain. Frank was very talented in his writing and many loved him. I read an article about him and didn't even Know he had children or that he was a reporter. People show you only what they want you to know I guess. He was very entertaining.