Friday, October 10, 2003

Can't stuff it

Yesterday was one of those ho-hum days. I tried to not over do my journal, I get the sense that I have been adding too much in one day lol. So I search for more journals to grace with my comments lol ya what ever. I was putting in wacky key words for search and then I started to put more serious words in. Someone needs a journal titled "NOT ANOTHER TEEN JOURNAL" LOL Anyway I did a search with the word Abortion in it and turned up like 75 journals with just that word in it. I scanned threw them, don't
know what lead me to do this search. But I did find a few ppl's journals where you could tell they are in some deep pain over this issue. That quote ran threw my head I heard on the radio "Where you have been hurt the most, God will use you the most" So I on just a few of them, I left just a link to my remembrance page, a webpage I created dealing with my own abortion and the fall out. I did get a very nice e-mail saying that my page was like "words of wisdom in her head." Nice. I pray that she will start to deal with what happen and not stuff it.

People listen up, you cannot stuff things down deep and not think they will not come up to the surface in some way or another. But it did take me over 10 yrs to deal with what I had done and to heal from it. I too tried to stuff it and other hurts, with drugs, drinking, bad relationships, lots of sex, and other destructive things. lol you would not recognize the person I used to be before Christ.
My turning point was when I found a relationship with the Lord and also going to Post-Abortion Counciling. That is why I can be so open about it now, cuz I dealt with it and let God heal me of all those hurts and regrets and grief, and guilt. I gave him my broken pieces and he healed me. I am a new creation in Christ. :)

1 comment:

  1. I know the feeling lol, sometimes I just get so bored so I add to my journal (like I am about to do now) -sigh- LoL your daughter looks adorable getting into the brownie cake. I myself would have the same problem if faced with a platter of tempting chocolate.
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